I WON'T GO INTO TOO MUCH DETAILS ABOUT MY LIFE... I HAVE MY OWN REASONS WHY I'M ON MY JOURNEY AND WHY I MADE THIS BLOG AND MY MUSIC TRYING TO SHED SOME LIGHT ON DARK AND TABOO TOPICS. BUT THE FOLDER I AM POSTING/SHARING BELOW NOW IS MY BROTHER'S PERSONAL FILES AND EXPERIENCE WITH THESE DEMONS AND HOW IT SEEMS HE HAS BEEN USED IN SOME SORT OF SATANIC MIND KONTROL PROGRAM WHICH MAKES HIM ALMOST ACT/SEEM LIKE A ZOMBIE NOW, HE'S NO LONGER HOW HE USED TO BE... HE IS NOW MORE QUIET THAN ME (WHICH IS PRETTY HARD TO DO BECAUSE I WAS KNOWN AS THE QUIET ALMOST AUTISTIC ONE IN THE FAMILY). ANYWAY WATCH THIS VIDEO BELOW FIRST TO UNDERSTAND TO SEE MY BROTHER IN THE GOOD OL DAYS WHEN HE THOUGHT FLASHING THE DEVIL HORNS SIGN AND DOING A LITTLE BIT OF MAGIC WAS COOL:
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.contour metal dictatorship stroke =2
.¬metal distortionist
.visitation proccess canceled
.¬eliminated devil worship
.blue screen hunter=
.curseur .invisible.philippe
.eliminated .ennemi
.hair functions
.you come here and you die .no automatic redemption
.adjust my mic
.kladeiscopie a la meme vitesse de lumiere .fibonnacci
.placer les mirroirs .angle de satan.
pluton emane des niveau de radiation contraire .si tu fais ton Smaath . envoi a pluton
¬bom toute qui t'aime
generate light
.facial features. philippe = devil incarcerated
.generate coldsaw .attack.continuum 2.boucle fermer
.change angle of attaq
.moelle epiniere pour .faire marche arriere . concentrer sur une image a la fois
curseur = hair d'un noir
generate colsaw
.what am i .if your a virus
.pound key .algorythm for generating a head ach
.third eye matter for blackbox rendition
.kimber
.tuyau d'echappement
.accurracy
.ingurgite= -molecule
.h7 a8 c3
.duplication process automated
.enregistrement dingbats effects= -antisecretion=crums
.generate major worm hole that could *
.generate uman as colsaw .escrement
.devier une activation un signal .rein .adresse (ex.visual studio)
.systeme cardio vasculaire .permet aux autre de voir ce que tu vois et t'envouter
.ma voix = savoi*
.effet dingbat
.automation 2
.processeur
.ascii text storm
.deactivation .wonderwoman
..george micheal ..tyrese dingbat reaction intallation=
*isabelle McDOUGAL 11/01/15 18:45
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-striptease 02:30
-iron
-scud missile
-i=44 minimum to sacrilege level .1 .2 .3
.
a b
.generate profits a
N. A. Cl. P0. PH.
-hotpot shield
-guilty conscience level 6
-emaning functions ? who the f..is uman?
-possession notepad????
-camby
-Natural/reset
.gemissement -chatiment .b
,isreal blabla .b
bellemarre voice
caron voice
steven voice
nathan voice
george voice
chris voice
adrian voice
pauline marois voice
chatiment a b c
c( back )
-javascript .eventlistenner
.sleep mode
-bellemarre eleiminer ????= enemi _
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lui c'est le repli le tissus qui ne doitpas comprendre qu"il servi d'attaque.
la replique...celui qui est obliger de vivre avec le faitr qu'il est obliger doit etre envelopper d'un couche plus agglomerante..
d'un tissus plus agglomerant.
s'une d'un structure anglo-systeme.
tissus agglomerateur
qui a pas peur
de revendiquer ses droits dans un serveur...
plie meme plus
chaque etre humain est un soleil en puissance
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-¬anneantir tout les serveurs americain x1500
-¬unclear entrance
-¬remplacer tes functions par le serveur satanic
-¬reboot system. -.mort
-¬victimisation .annuller
-¬reboot oditary canal
-¬revamp patient
-¬dihc
-occupation process
-automatic rejection from .solar
-¬nadege
-cancel connexion server
-regroup
-reconfigure 3rd eye -vider corbeil
-cancel animator server
-delete from sternum
-clear this
-off .level1
.level2
.level3
.acid laminé
serveur server american
-decapiter son fonction cervical
-quand tu secrete des hormones a qun .tu recois desgnomes
-brain functions
-brain surgeon technique
-hormones
-¬vagin
-¬games .begin .canceled
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.generate the reality sound
.tabulae
.signal
.09:01 2015-01-27 .signal cabochon a ta maraine
.behind close doodrs(inspecteur )
.generated new reality
.overlay layers is philippes .who think is uman?
.overllay
.continuum satani imaginaire)
.wake up marraine( logitech
.timing last call 4 (oi de l'autre cave peut s'applique)
.test du sommeil institut pendant toute la nuit
.hemoglobine sur tout la tendance en avance..commeca tu arrete le temps
.allummette
.glove pootion
.you ha ve mail
-------------------------book of savage-----------------------------------
1-automatisation
2-semi-automatique
3-processeur
4-powerful impact
5-systematic
6-¬agglomeration
7-optimisation
8-save data
9-verifying data
10-victimisation process
11-regulators
12-observation concept
13-disattachment
14-lightning strike
15-samsonite
16-declogage
17-victimisation alembert
18-croyance algebrique
19-observation consommation
20-restauration des biens
21-consommation global des biens
22-victoire corporelle
23-assumation total des pertes economique
24-accumulation des dettes
25-victoire corporelle
26-accendancae cardiaque deteriorer
27-orientation
28-
etc.,
750 facon de se glorifier
replication cardiaque ACTIVATION CARDIAQUE
.LA LOI DE L'OCTECT
cobole 3.9
Corricolly administration
actived visitational signal
occupy strategy G.9
voodoo rendition
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.inject poison
.rename strategy
.reverbogatory
.leave this
.flashback...moving through computer
-Appear & declare presence
.physically appear & steal physical stuff
.delete connexion
.calculate temperature du corps
.appear examen through
.move thougts with magnets
.calcule temperature de la piece
.encaisse dans ta face->
.casse ton serveur
.sting you continuum
.tranfiguration process..get your stuff
.on a car
.levier de ignite with button...fly spaceship
.Hawkeye connexion
-pert
-local 43
-local47
-addresse postal endroit dans la tete de qun
--------------------------M theory & string theory----------------------------------
back forth = optical illusion
object to stretch to membrane
bullet in the head
v1=development shadashan base
MEM( BRANE)
OUR UNIVERSE IS LIKE SLICE OF BREAD
v2= u cut slices vs gif movie ..2 animations
graphic interchange format
G1- gravitational level transfoemation
Electro magnetic light to mmagnified glass
isaac Newton theory gravitaonal force ...boring
electro magnetism is 1000bilioons ...1 with 39.. 0
that the same force behind light & electricity
green light - uranus
electro magnetic sound**
gravity might pusjh
M14= code of bible
gravitons =gravaity in th eblood (sppeed of light)
everybody admits there s a problem
but the question is, can the string theory solve them
the big bang was'nt the beginnig at all
the universwe could existinf ling before
infinitesimal size but a stupendesly
parraleele universe could ohave impact on us
small to...boom soemone became a star
supersymetry
nervous system neurical supersymetri
teleportation*
you are broadscate3d live
---------------------------consumption---------------------------------
all summate him
all summate not
.block birth .mother from butting in
.end
.who is the genie in the bottle?
.rapping tonality= ao
.¬crown shakras problems of gravity function..automatic reaction kill
..after sex..what the fuck is your problem
.any other face is ire=relevent programming= ennemy
.sign de satan en annee lumiere
. les optimus primus generate realityaccuraty
.anthenne de ton erection seulement
.warning sign .you dummy
.arch ennemy..lesli, nathan & melissa
.¬nlandu
.¬haitien
.patricia jenkins vient secrete des hormones deja face a face en continuum
-veut tes yeux envoutement
-uranus status eve ,jupiterre
.cancel all Melissa gervais functions on my behalf philippe Loliya Lokoka
.whiteman is jelous ?
.tourne la roue de la bille..avec thermodynaics avec de l'eau h7
-natural .unatural .automatic death if i see you
.merging responsabilits with your brother and your your whole family
.reservoir dogs h3o to Omega 4 .anti hormonal
.curse people who take my .mother soul.brother ..sister.father .myself
.single out .birth father
.single out .grand mother .curse people against my biology
.single out .birth mother
-
-.metra citronelle alors vas y frero
-anti=logiciel .esprit hardware=
.RESERVOIR H7GODS
-.capital punishment .pineal gland
-..cell theraapy .goodie mob
-brain mole
-brain cells
-globule rouge
-globule blanc
-hemoglobine=0
-phospate
-nerf a cabochon en continuum
-centre de gravité
.brain freezes effect .sound*
battle with sorciere
showdown
---------
-volume 3 voluume agglomerante
.level 4
.excitation
.proclamation
inject poison
.coup d'atemie
-verifie les donnees cardiaque trascendale
.7x la vie de qun..a chaque matin..si je le depasse pas je le deviens
.visitation process
.anneanticemment
.caapatuleté ton sternum
.dirige tes attauqe par consciense cardique
-scier mon electron
-agglomeration process canceller
TROUBLE SHOOTING
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M1=MAGNITIZED1=> Mg=
2
3
4
5
-
dossier a R.A.M.Q.
VOYAGER DANS LE TEMPS PARCE QUE
nbr de proton = Numero atomique
Nom de l'element = Mzaùasse
thierry mort
Dan centre de gravité
.brain freezes effect .sound*
battle with sorciere
showdown
---------
-volume 3 volume agglomerante
.level 4
.excitation
.proclamation
inject poison
.coup d'atemie
-verifie les donnees cardiaque trascendale
.7x la vie de qun..a chaque matin..si je le depasse pas je le deviens
.visitation process
.anneanticemment
.caapatuleté ton sternum
.dirige tes attauqe par consciense cardique
-scier mon electron
-agglomeration process canceller
centre de gravité
.brain freezes effect .sound*
battle with sorciere
showdown
---------
-volume 3 voluume agglomerante
.level 4
.excitation
.proclamation
inject poison
.coup d'atemie
-verifie les donnees cardiaque trascendale
.7x la vie de qun..a chaque matin..si je le depasse pas je le deviens
.visitation process
.anneanticemment
.caapatuleté ton sternum
.dirige tes attaque par consciense cardique
-scier mon electron
-agglomeration process canceller
il peuvent le mettre dans ta gueule
pense pas a moi..
ACID JAZZ..POISON GAZ ACID RAIN
C.NET
pourquoi je dois intervenir
la planete de jesus Uranus...comment il fait pour avoir une planete?
il peuvent le mettre dans ta gueule
pense pas a moi..
ACID JAZZ..POISON GAZ ACID RAIN
C.NET
pourquoi je dois intervenir
la planete de jesus Uranus...comment il fait pour avoir une planete?
.deactivate desktop protocol
.deactivate hormonial signaldeactivate signal NA3 H39
.hawkeye connexion
.perte d'automne
.psychose cardiaque
.nervous syndrome
.cancel patient desobessance cardiaque
.occupation double
.hostinuse cardiaque
.virus du sida
.Attaque
.reset space & time
.regulate character feature
.odor vaporisateur
.nouvelle game
.activation gif protocol
.l'ange gardien
.ignite le 3e oeil
.new signaux
.continuum, engage le circuit , efface ce que fais
.personne sur times
.callise
.prend que...
.chambre a aire
.eeee..
.le
.deactivate desktop protocol
.deactivate hormonial signaldeactivate signal NA3 H39
.hawkeye connexion
.perte d'automne
.psychose cardiaque
.nervous syndrome
.cancel patient desobessance cardiaque
.occupation double
.hostinuse cardiaque
.virus du sida
.Attaque
.reset space & time
.regulate character feature
.odor vaporisateur
.nouvelle game
.activation gif protocol
.l'ange gardien
.ignite le 3e oeil
.new signaux
.continuum, engage le circuit , efface ce que fais
.personne sur times
.callise
.prend que...
.chambre a aire
.eeee..
.le
achille tendon
.deactivate desktop protocol
.deactivate hormonial signaldeactivate signal NA3 H39
.hawkeye connexion
.perte d'automne
.psychose cardiaque
.nervous syndrome
.cancel patient desobessance cardiaque
.occupation double
.hostinuse cardiaque
.virus du sida
.Attaque
.reset space & time
.regulate character feature
.odor vaporisateur
.nouvelle game
.activation gif protocol
.l'ange gardien
.ignite le 3e oeil
.new signaux
.continuum, engage le circuit , efface ce que fais
.personne sur times
.callise
.prend que...
.chambre a aire
.eeee..
.le
.deactivate desktop protocol
.deactivate hormonial signaldeactivate signal NA3 H39
.hawkeye connexion
.perte d'automne
.psychose cardiaque
.nervous syndrome
.cancel patient desobessance cardiaque
.occupation double
.hostinuse cardiaque
.virus du sida
.Attaque
.reset space & time
.regulate character feature
.odor vaporisateur
.nouvelle game
.activation gif protocol
.l'ange gardien
.ignite le 3e oeil
.new signaux
.continuum, engage le circuit , efface ce que fais
.personne sur times
.callise
.prend que...
.chambre a aire
.eeee..
.le
achille tendon
activity log 31/12/2014
hervey = pu dans le centrefuge=sarko
impurete au complet =bones
tatoo hieroglyphics
pierre-luc rakusha deplumer
steve dubreuil evacuation du .4 dissolution cardiaque
la mere a poupon discontinueation cardiaque
gabriel
transfert knowlegde
Lamar odom singleton
ACTIVATION SERVER NIVEAU PRIMAIRE
my legs
reset on that last key compound
pound=note=signal=noise=last actions
reset shakras
mg35=750mk35 == NASA DETRESS SIGNAL
NASA = my mind
reset
reset minds eye rotation gravital function
blemish fuction =noby kbows nothing
oxygen 12
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omega 3 = pound
omega
Index of /
[ICO] Name Last modified Size Description
Apache/2.4.7 (Ubuntu) Server at envoutant.com Port 80
devil in a blue dress= menstruation cardique d'une femme ...business birth whorganisation
O1= continuum strike
o2= continuum
o3= volume revient
04= square 1
05= square 2
hellu-cination
reason
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1) gaz et petrole
2) money interest
3) purpose reason ..arabic
4) rukshain...sadashan
5) sarah
6) devil balls
7) satanic behavior
8) satanic worship
9) crusade
10) law of power
11)seduction
12)art...ist
13)jelousy=bigutry
satanic behavior
verbal scripting ..tu pourras jamais enfant
oxygen 12
===========
omega 3 = pound
omega
Index of /
[ICO] Name Last modified Size Description
Apache/2.4.7 (Ubuntu) Server at envoutant.com Port 80
devil in a blue dress= menstruation cardique d'une femme ...business birth whorganisation
O1= continuum strike
o2= continuum
o3= volume revient
04= square 1
05= square 2
hellu-cination
reason
-------
1) gaz et petrole
2) money interest
3) purpose reason ..arabic
4) rukshain...sadashan
5) sarah
6) devil balls
7) satanic behavior
8) satanic worship
9) crusade
10) law of power
11)seduction
12)art...ist
13)jelousy=bigutry
satanic behavior
verbal scripting ..tu pourras jamais enfant
orientation programming
========================
contraction cardiaque=cardin
halucination cardiaque+
visitation cardiaquen canceler
reset aligning
adjustment server
re-activate voice programming
feeling sur ma tete =crown shakraas =impossible
visitation process on your behalf
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construction de satelite
windows explorer
transfert figurine cardiaque=
technologique
hocus pocuzs technique = agent d'information
hardening heart functions
reexamine programming
determine process regulation
organs to do the job for us
el debarge
go back in time with your gravitaion signals reo earth rotation similaritys
pluton est mercure .....les nathan roch exagere
activity log 31/12/2014
hervey = pu dans le centrefuge=sarko
impurete au complet =bones
tatoo hieroglyphics
pierre-luc rakusha deplumer
steve dubreuil evacuation du .4 dissolution cardiaque
la mere a poupon discontinueation cardiaque
gabriel
transfert knowlegde
Lamar odom singleton
ACTIVATION SERVER NIVEAU PRIMAIRE
my legs
reset on that last key compound
pound=note=signal=noise=last actions
reset shakras
mg35=750mk35 == NASA DETRESS SIGNAL
NASA = my mind
reset
reset minds eye rotation gravital function
blemish fuction =noby kbows nothing
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philou is there already
scud missiles
screenhunter functions
paragnome par secondes 758
origuitary synthetyzer orchestrated bt magnitized glas concept number 4
philippe Lokoka repertoire all the
philou is there already
Marc
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IF THE ABOVE STUFF MAKES SENSE TO ANYBODY I WOULD LIKE TO HEAR YOUR THOUGHTS ON WHAT ALL OF THE ABOVE MEANS. CAN A HUMAN BEING REALLY BE PROGRAMMED LIKE THAT. I HEAR ABOUT CLONES BUT THE ABOVE STUFF IS "UNBELIEVABLE" !?!? ANYWAY BRO... I AM SORRY IF ANYTHING I DID EVER MADE YOU DECIDE TO CHOOSE "THEM" AND "BELIEVE THEM" AND "JOIN THEM" ... I TRIED TO WARN HIM BUT HE WOULDN'T LISTEN. EVEN WHEN HE TOLD ME THAT HE WAS SEEING MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND (HE TOLD ME THAT HE "CREATED" AN IMAGINARY FRIEND THAT SOMETIMES TAKES THE FORM OF MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND, SOMETIMES IT APPEARS TO HIM AS OTHER PEOPLE...ONE TIME I APPARENTLY ATTACKED MY BROTHER WITH AN ARMY OF BUGS LIKE I WAS BEELZEBUB !!! REALLY I DID THAT ?!?! ME ?!?! I'M NOT JOKING THAT IS WHAT HE TOLD ME ONCE) AND TALKING TO HIM. ON THAT OCCASION, I ASKED HIM: "HOW DO YOU KNOW THAT IT'S REALLY _________ (INSERT MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND'S NAME HERE) ? DOES HE APPEAR TO YOU LIKE WHEN HE WAS A KID OR IS HE GROWN UP ? WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW _________ ?" MY BROTHER PAUSED FOR A SECOND TO THINK AND CAME UP WITH "I JUST KNOW IT'S HIM... WHEN YOU KNOW YOU KNOW" !?!?! WHAT !?!?!
ANOTHER TIME HE TOLD ME THAT SOME PEOPLE WE KNOW WE'RE USING VOODOO ON US (ME AND MY BROTHER). I ALREADY MENTIONED THAT HE TRIED TO KILL ME... MAYBE THAT DAY HE WAS TRYING TO SCARE ME (IT WAS DURING THE DAYS I WAS WORKING ON THE VENUS PROJECT VOL. 1 AND ON THE WW3 ALIEN DIGEST PDF DOCUMENT AND AROUND THE SECOND TIME I WAS INVOLVED IN A BIZARRE CAR ACCIDENT WHEN THE CAR I WAS DRIVING SEEMED TO BE "REMOTELY CONTROLLED BY SOMEONE ELSE BY DISTANCE"...AFTER I SURVIVED THAT... A TOWING TRUCK AND MANY OTHER PEOPLE INCLUDING A WOMAN WHO WANTED TO CALL "DIBS" ON MY SISTER'S DOG (I'M DEAD SERIOUS... I'M NOT JOKING IN THIS POST)). WE GOT INTO A FIGHT (RIGHT AFTER HE GOT OFF THE PHONE WITH "SOMEONE WHO OBVIOUSLY GAVE HIM THE ORDER TO DO WHAT TO DO"), I WAS HITTING HIM AND HE WAS TRYING TO ACT LIKE MY PUNCHES WASN'T HURTING HIM... THEN TO STOP ME FROM HITTING HIM AFTER A COUPLE OF BLOWS HE (MY BROTHER WHO IS OLDER, TALLER AND BIGGER THAN ME) DECIDED TO JUST GET ON TOP OF ME AND CHOKE ME. THIS IS ONE OF THE MANY OCCASIONS IN MY LIFE THAT I SHOWED PEOPLE THAT I REALLY AM A WALKING CONTRADICTION, I AM A SANE AND QUIET PERSON WHO TRULY LIKES PEACE, TRANQUILITY AND SERENITY BUT LIKE A TRUE GEMINI I AM ALSO A CRAZY ASS FUCK "KAMIKAZE"... WHAT I DID IS I LET HIM CHOKE ME AND JUST SAT THERE NOT BREATHING LOOKING AT MY BROTHER DEAD IN THE EYES PEACEFULLY READY TO DIE !!!! I'M DEAD SERIOUS !!! HE FOR SOME REASON DECIDED TO STOP CHOKING ME AND JUST GO INTO HIS ROOM (WE WERE LIVING IN MY SISTER'S CONDO TOGETHER). I FOLLOWED HIM INTO HIS ROOM AND GOT ON MY KNEES AND TAUNTED HIM "GO AHEAD KILL ME !!!". HE JUST SAT IN HIS CHAIR AND SEEMED SURPRISED THAT "THINGS DIDN'T GO AS HE/THEY PLANNED" !!! AND JUST CALLED ME "UN CON"(THAT'S IDIOT IN FRENCH). AND I TOLD HIM: "YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW BIG AN IDIOT I AM AND IF YOU DON'T HAVE THE BALLS TO DO WHAT YOU HAVE TO DO TO STOP ME THEN SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GET OUT OF MY WAY... PUSSY !!!" YEP I SAID AND DID THAT THAT DAY. IT'S NOT THAT I WASN'T SCARED BUT MY BRAVERY IS FUELLED BY SENSE THAT EVEN DOE I KNOW THAT WHAT I'M DOING IS WRONG IT'S ALSO RIGHT... SO I AM NOT SCARED TO LOSE MY LIFE... EVEN IF PEOPLE THINK I'M GAY FOR WHAT I SAY (ABOUT JESUS OR VENUS/[HERM]APHRODITE) OR CRAZY FOR ASKING WHY IS THE MEANING OF REVELATION 22:16 OR MATTHEW 19:12.
NOW I WILL SHARE ANOTHER EPISODE OF A CONVERSATION I HAD WITH MY BROTHER WHEN WE WERE LIVING TOGETHER (AND HE WAS SEEING ME WORK ON THAT WW3 ALIEN DIGEST DOCUMENT AND TOLD ME TO ADD "AS MANY PICTURES" ?!?! OK ?!?!). HE SHARED WITH ME THAT ON ONE OF HIS ASTRAL PROJECTIONS "FANTASTIC VOYAGES" (HE GOT INTO THAT "NEW AGE" STUFF AND WAS TALKING TO ME ABOUT CHACKRAS AND [TANTRA/KUNDALINI] STUFF ABOUT SPIRITUALITY I DON'T "FUCK WITH"... BECAUSE I KNOW THAT IT "ALWAYS ENDS UP LIKE HOW MY BROTHER ENDS UP...EVENTUALLY"). I DON'T RECALL ALL THE CONVERSATION BUT HE WAS TALKING ABOUT "REPTILIANS" AND THAT HE MET A BEING THAT SEEMED LIKE A KING (OR QUEEN I DON'T KNOW) SITTING ON A THRONE SURROUND BY OTHER BEINGS. AND MY BROTHER TOLD ME THAT HE ASKED "ARE YOU THE DEVIL" ? AND THE ANSWER HE GOT WAS: "YES AND NO" OR "NOT NECESSARILY". JUDGING BY WHAT HE PUT IN THE FOLDER BELOW... IT'S SAFE FOR ME TO SAY... YES IT WAS.
AND TO FINALLY SHARE ONE LAST THING ABOUT THE "STRANGE THINGS" THAT HAPPENED BETWEEN ME AND MY BROTHER (WHOM I MENTIONED TOLD ME THAT SOME PEOPLE WE KNEW WERE USING VOODOO ON THE TWO OF US).ONE OF THE PEOPLE HE NAMED THAT WAS USING VOODOO ON US IS THIS GIRL CALLED MELISSA:
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{BY ITSELF ?!?! OR I DID IT... I HONESTLY CAN'T SAY BUT I THINK THAT I DID NOT TURN THE WHEEL}AND CAME TO A STOP. I WAS HIGH HE LET ME DRIVE HIS ACURA...HE WAS NEXT TO ME AND HE TOO DIDN'T TRY TO STOP ME EVEN DOE HE WAS RIGHT THERE NEXT TO ME ALSO LOOKING AT US HEADING STRAIGHT FOR THAT WALL !?!?! HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT ?!?! WE STAYED FRIENDS AFTER THAT FOR AWHILE AFTER THAT, I EXCUSED MYSELF A MILLION TIMES... HE FIXED THE CAR, IT SEEMED TO WORK FINE AFTER A WHILE BUT HE STILL SOLD IT LATER, HE GOT ANOTHER ONE,... WE STILL TALKED AND WERE COOL FOR MANY YEARS AFTER THAT... BUT AFTER I MOVED WITH MY FAMILY WE SAW LESS AND LESS OF EACH OTHER. WE PLAYED IN A BASKETBALL LEAGUE TOGETHER... BUT I DECIDED TO STOP PLAYING IN THAT LEAGUE AND STOP GOING BACK TO TWO-MOUNTAINS AND TALKING TO MOST OF THE PEOPLE FROM OVER THERE.
ANYWAY, I GOT CARRIED AWAY. BACK TO MELISSA, THE SECOND PART OF THE STORY THAT I THINK RELATES TO HER IS THAT I HAVE TO ADMIT THAT I HAVE MY OWN VERSION OF THE KATY PERRY SONG BUT ME IT WOULD GO: "I KISSED A GUY AND I DIDN'T LIKE IT". YES... WANT TO KNOW WHO IT WAS ?!?! DRUM ROLL PLEASE !!!!! DDDDRRRRRRRRRRRRMMRMMMMMMM......: IT WAS MY BROTHER ?!?! YES I'M COMING OUT OF THE CLOSET THE ONLY STORY OF ANY PHYSICAL GAY STUFF THAT I EVER DID (AND THAT'S BY ACCIDENT OR BY VOODOO BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED THAT DAY BUT I WOULD NEVER THINK OF KISSING MY OWN BROTHER... BUT FOR SOME REASON WHEN WE WERE FACE TO FACE TO EACH OTHER ONE DAY... HE LEANED FORWARD AND KISSED ME... WHY THE FUCK WOULD I WANT TO KISS MY BROTHER ?!?! I COULDN'T STAND THE DUDE... HE WAS THE "TYPICAL MALE BIMBO" ATHLETE STAR I GOT SWAG AND I CAN GET ANY GIRL I WANT ASSHOLE AND PROUD TO MAKE FUN OF ME FOR BEING A SHY AND "AWKWARD NERD" OR "LOSER" THAT I SEE EVERYWHERE... THE TYPE OF GUY THAT GET'S ALL THE LADIES BUT IS A JERK AN IDIOT...MUSCLES WITHOUT BRAINS... AND GIRLS SEEM TO LIKE THAT TYPE OF GUY... I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHY... BUT YOU GET THE POINT I'M TRYING TO MAKE...HE'S MY BROTHER I ALWAYS SHOWED HIM RESPECT BUT HE ALWAYS TREATED ME LIKE SHIT. SO I DID MY OWN THING... I NEVER CLAIMED THAT I WAS SMARTER OR BETTER I JUST KEPT TO MYSELF... I LEARNED TO MAKE BEATS, WRITE A FEW RAPS/POEMS, MADE THIS BLOG, WENT ON MY JOURNEY...I TRIED TO DO ALL THAT IN MY OWN CORNER BUT FOR SOME REASON MY TRIED TO GET TO ME THROUGH MY BROTHER).
AND JUST TO COME CLEAN MORE I ADMIT THAT I MIGHT HAVE WATCH SOME TRANNY PORN SOMETIMES, I EXPERIMENTED BUT I NEVER DID IN PERSON... WHY ?!?1 I'M OPEN MINDED, BEING A SHY AWKWARD NERD WHO ONLY HAD A FEW GIRLFRIENDS AND RELATIONSHIPS THAT DIDN'T LAST VERY LONG MADE ME QUESTIONS WETHER OR NOT I WAS GAY OR MAYBE I GAVE MYSELF PTSD OR MAYBE SOMEONE PUT A CURSE ON ME FOR SAYING AND WRITTING ALL THIS [ANDROGYNOUS] STUFF ABOUT BAPHOMET OR LUCIFER/THE DEVIL/VENUS/[HERM]APHRODITE ?!?! I DON'T KNOW BUT THE SPELL DOESN'T LAST THAT LONG BECAUSE I ALWAYS WENT BACK TO WATCHING STRAIGHT PORN AND I NEVER WENT OUT IN THE WORLD AND HAD SEX WITH A MAN OR A SHE-MAN... NEVER. I WILL NEVER ENGAGE IN THAT TYPE OF BEHAVIOUR UNTIL I GET ANSWERS ON WHO GAVE MOSES THOSE COMMANDMENTS ?!?! WHY DO SOME PEOPLE CALL GOD "FATHER" WHILE SOME THINK THERE'S NO GOD BUT A GODDESS WHILE OTHERS THINK OUR CREATOR IS BOTH GENDERS. NOW I MIGHT ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER TO MY OWN QUESTIONS... MAYBE THAT IS WHY ALL THIS STUFF HAPPENED TO ME (BEFORE I DID ANY OF THIS... THE MUSIC, THE DOCUMENTS..."BRINGING UP/OUT THE SHE-MALES"[THAT ONE WAS FOR SOMEONE WHO TOLD ME IN ANOTHER STRANGE EPISODE IN MY LIFE TO DO JUST THAT ANOTHER TIME HE TOLD ME TO "KNOW MY ROLE LIKE OTHELLO" ANOTHER TIME HE QUOTE JERU THE DAMAJA NEXT TO ME BY SAYING "DO I NEED TO TELL YOU WHO THE DEVIL IS ?!?!"...ANOTHER TIME HE TOLD ME "SORRY"... AND I LEFT HIM HANGING IN AN AWKWARD SILENCE AND THEN CHANGE THE SUBJECT AND HE UNDERSTOOD THAT HE LOST A TRUE FRIENDSHIP... A REAL SILENT SOLDIER/PRODUCER WHO JUST WANTED TO HELP HIM MAKE IT IN THE MUSIC BUSINESS BECAUSE HE HAD SOME TALENT... HE NEVER GOT THE MESSAGE LIKE I GET THE MESSAGE THAT I WOULD NEVER AGAIN ACCEPT MY FRIEND'S "SLOPPY SECONDS". HE THOUGHT I WAS COMING ON TO HIM AFTER I TRIED TO GIVE HIM THE FLOWERS THAT A GIRL GAVE TO ME ALONG WITH TELLING ME I HAD THE KEYS TO HER HEART... I KNOW IT WAS A HARSH THING TO DO TO THAT GIRL I BROKE HER HEART... SCORPIO APOLOGIZES... BUT I DON'T THINK I CAN EVER BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH ANYONE... I DON'T THINK I WILL EVER BE ABLE TO LET MY GUARD DOWN AND TRUST ANYONE WITH MY HEART... AS LONG AS I AM SURROUNDED BY FAKE FRIENDS AND BATTLING DEMONS OR "FIGHTING AGAINST PRINCIPALITIES AND WICKEDNESS IN HIGH PLACES"]).
I'LL STOP HERE, I WON'T GO INTO ALL THE OTHER EPISODES WITH ALL THE PEOPLE I KNOW, FROM THE BEGINNING I WAS A "LONE WOLF" AND THAT IS HOW I AM NOW MANY YEARS LATER. BACK TO SQUARE ONE. I TRIED TO CHILL WITH "DIFFERENT CLICKS" THAT FOR SOME REASON COULDN'T CO-EXIST. BUT THEY WERE ALL "CONFEDERATE AGAINST ME" THAT IS WHAT IS SO FUNNY TO ME. I WAS THE "ENEMY OF MY FRIENEMIES" !!!!
I TRIED TO NOT INVOLVE ANYONE IN MY JOURNEY, BECAUSE I KNEW EVERYONE WOULD CALL ME CRAZY AND TRY TO STOP ME. I TRIED TO FUNCTION IN SOCIETY WHILE I WAS DOING MY "SPIRITUAL QUEST/WALK" IN MY SPARE TIME. BUT I LEARNED IT'S NOT SOMETHING YOU CAN DO PART TIME, YOUR EITHER IN IT OR YOUR NOT. AND I WENT FULL IN AS FAR AS I COULD GO ... I DECIDED TO SEARCH THROUGH HISTORY THROUGH THE LIFE AND WORKS LEFT BEHIND BY ALL THE MYSTICS OF ALL RELIGIONS FOR ANSWERS THROUGH LOGIC (LIKE SPOCK) FOR GOD'S EXISTENCE BUT NOT TO GO SO DEEP AS TO ACTUALLY MEDITATE FOR YEARS TILL I SAW THE INNER FLAME, OR OPEN UP MY ROOT CHACKRA AND WAKE UP THE KUNDALINI SERPENT THROUGH TANTRA OR HATHA-YOGA OR TO CONDUCT ANY WHITE [NEW AGE OR AFROCENTRIC] OR BLACK MAGIC [VOODOO,HOODOO, SANTERIA,ETC... OR PLAIN SATANIC] RITUALS.BECAUSE WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BROTHER IS THE NEVER ENDING STORY THAT HAS TO END BECAUSE THIS IS GETTING OLD AND I VOLUNTEER TO SACRIFICE MY LIFE SO THESE DEMONIC ENTITIES WHO SPOKE TO ME THROUGH THE MOUTH OF A LITTLE CHILD AND BOLDLY SAID TO ME TWICE THAT "SHE WAS GOING TO KILL ME".
SO LET IT BE. I AM READY TO DIE. I WAS BORN READY, I AM READY FOR THIS JOURNEY TO END SO I CAN SEE THE MOST HIGH AND ASK HIM MYSELF IF HE IS THE DEVIL AND ANSWER ME YES OR NO BECAUSE WHAT OMNIPRESENT, OMNISCIENT AND OMNIPOTENT AND YET BENEVOLENT NOT MALOVENT CREATOR WOULD LET STUFF LIKE THIS HAPPEN TO THIS WORLD AND HIS CREATIONS THAT WERE MADE IN HIS/HER IMAGE ?!?! HOW CAN I LOVE AND WORSHIP AND SERVE A BEING THAT DOES THIS OR LET THIS GO ON FOR THIS LONG WITHOUT DOING ANY THING ABOUT IT ?!?! AND TO JESUS I MUST QUOTE FERGIE FROM THE BLACK EYED PEAS : "YOU ARE SO 2000 AND LATE". THE PRODIGAL SON SHOULD NOT RETURN UNLESS HE CAN FIX HIS RELIGION AND ALL OTHER RELIGIONS MISTAKES AND REALLY THIS TIME TAKE AWAY HIS AND OUR SINS AND BRING PEACE ON EARTH [IF HE TRULY IS THE PRINCE OF PEACE]AS IT SUPPOSEDLY IS IN HEAVEN AND SLAY THE DRAGON AND THE FALSE PROPHET[S] AND THE BEAST WITH SEVEN HEADS SITTING ON SEVEN MOUNTAINS AND STOP ARMAGEDDON. MY JUDGMENT DAY MUST COME ONE DAY AND I WON'T RUN AWAY.
BECAUSE WHAT HAPPENED TO ME, MY BROTHER, MY FAMILY, MY RACE, MY WORLD,MY FELLOW HUMAN BEINGS, MY FAITH IN GOD, MY "JOIE DE VIVRE", MY DESIRE TO HAVE CHILDREN, MY HOPE FOR THE FUTURE, IS NOT RIGHT !!!! THIS HAS TO STOP ONCE AND FOR ALL. STOP STALLING, IF I WAS GIVEN THE NAME EMMANUEL (GOD IS WITH US) AND IF GOD TRULY HEARD THE CRIES OF ISHMAEL. THEN LET MY SACRIFICE, ME BEING THE SCAPEGOAT, THE RAM CAUGHT IN THE TICKET BE ACCEPTED. I'M TIRED OF WRITTING ... LET JUSTICE BE SERVE OR TAKE ALL YOUR DEMONS AND STAY THE FUCK AWAY FROM US IN YOUR DIMENSION !!! HERE YOU ARE NOT WELCOMED !!! THIS IS MY STORY AND MY OPINION AND I'M STICKING TO IT.
FILES OF THE MK-ULTRA PROGRAMMING DONE TO MY BROTHER:
https://onedrive.live.com/redir?resid=3b036fe078ffb6cc%21188
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